I truly forgot this excitement.
Typing out full sentences, only to delete them coz I feel they just don't fit.
Searching for the exact word that fits the feeling.
Digging deep into myself wanting to know what is it that I want to say.
Feeling liberated.
Free.
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But I also learnt that as much as I have grown over the last 4 years, some emotions are still the same.
And it's only best to let go now.
Turn over a new leaf.
Get some fresh air.
Be the happy, easy-going me. Again.
Make plans.
Travel.
Laugh more.
Frown less.
Love more.
Hate less.
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"Ma, in 4 years time u turn 50"
"Chingu, my son's getting married next year"
Haih, and am still in denial.
So I haven't changed much. And am glad I remain constant. In that sense.
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Life's gonna get better.
THAT
am sure...
